LOS ANGELES, CA- I’m still buzzing from Garbage’s show at the Hollywood Palladium earlier this month. The band had announced that this would be their last U.S. headlining tour, and knowing this made the entire night feel sacred, like the whole crowd understood we were witnessing a closing chapter in real time and we were all so fortunate to be there for this moment. There was a heaviness in the air, but it wasn’t sad. It felt reverent. It felt like everyone had silently agreed to hold this night a little tighter, to be more present than usual, to soak in the kind of evening you know you’ll replay in your mind years from now.
But what struck me most wasn’t just the music (though every song hit like a memory rushing back). It was the community that filled that room, the sea of fans who’ve carried these songs through breakups, breakthroughs, first loves, and formative moments. People who found pieces of themselves in Shirley Manson’s voice and in each other. I kept looking around at the faces nearby and thinking about how many different lives were represented in that crowd, all bound together by a soundtrack that has shaped so many eras of who we’ve been.
Before the band even appeared, the energy was already crackling. When the room dimmed and the Twin Peaks theme began to swell through the speakers, it felt like stepping into another world, eerie, cinematic, iconic. It was the perfect invitation into the universe Garbage has always created: haunting, beautiful, mysterious, and full of emotional gravity. When they finally walked onstage, the transition from that theme into their presence felt like a spell being cast. You could feel the shift ripple through the room, like everyone inhaled at the exact same moment.
Shirley took to the mic and the whole room shifted again, even more intensely. There’s something about her presence, that mix of ferocity, elegance, and emotional honesty, that hits me every single time. She doesn’t just perform; she invites you in. She cracks something open. She gives you permission to feel the things you’ve tucked away. And on this night, it felt like she cracked open the entire Palladium. The way she holds herself… powerful but human… commanding but warm… makes it impossible not to meet her exactly where she is.
Classics like “Queer,” “Push It,” “#1 Crush,” and “Cherry Lips” had me reminiscing about the early days when I first heard these songs and how significant they all are to me. Each track carried its own reel of memories, old versions of myself resurfacing for a moment. They weren’t just playing a setlist, they were stitching together decades of who we’ve all become. You could see it in people’s faces, the way they mouthed the words like muscle memory, the way certain songs made them close their eyes just to hold the moment still.
And hearing the new songs live for the first time? That was its own awakening. “Chinese Fire Drill” especially lit something up in me, this bold, furious, liberating anthem that stares ageism straight in the face and laughs. It’s one of my favorite tracks from this year’s Let All That We Imagine Be the Light. Hearing Shirley deliver those lyrics with such clarity and defiance felt like watching someone carve a new space for all of us who are told we’re “too old,” “past our prime,” or meant to shrink as we age. Instead, she gave us a song that says: Abso-fucking-lutely not! It’s my new favorite anthem, a rallying cry for every one of us who is aging loudly, proudly, and unapologetically. Or for those who just don’t give a fuck what others think. You could feel its message land like a spark catching fire across the room.
And then came the three-song encore, the final exhale of the night. They opened with “Special,” and the reaction in the room was unreal. It was the first time they played it on this tour, a gift reserved for this closing show, and you could feel the crowd collectively losing their minds. People screamed. People grabbed the friends they came with. People looked around with that wide-eyed expression you get when something genuinely unexpected and perfect happens. It truly was special, a love letter tucked into the setlist just for us.
Then came “Stupid Girl,” sharp and iconic as ever, followed by the cathartic release of “Only Happy When It Rains.” It felt like the perfect circle, the songs that shaped us closing out an era with the kind of emotional force only Garbage can summon. The entire room moved like a single organism, shouting along, dancing, letting years of love and connection pour out in one last wave.
For so many of us, myself included, Shirley has been a guide. A mirror. A megaphone for the quiet parts of our hearts. She taught us that using your voice, especially for those who can’t speak safely or loudly, is an act of love. She’s stood up for survivors, for the marginalized, for the vulnerable, for anyone who’s been silenced or dismissed. And she’s done it consistently, boldly, compassionately. That kind of advocacy becomes part of the music’s heartbeat; you don’t just hear it, you carry it.
In the crowd, I could see fans singing through tears, dancing like their younger selves, leaning on friends, strangers, lovers. It felt like being surrounded by people who get it. People who’ve been shaped by these songs the way I have. People who’ve carried Garbage with them through every version of who they’ve been. My people. It’s rare to feel that kind of belonging in such a big space.
That’s the magic of this band, and of Shirley. They didn’t just create music. They created a community. A place where misfits, weirdos, queers, outsiders, survivors, romantics, and rebels could all stand together and feel seen. A place where you don’t have to apologize for who you are or who you’ve been. A place where you can just exist.
If this really is the last time Garbage headlines a U.S. tour, it was the kind of night that reminds you why fan communities matter so much. Why we gather. Why we show up. Why these artists carve themselves into our lives and never really leave. We don’t get many nights like this in a lifetime, and this one felt like a gift.
Thank you, Garbage.
Thank you, Shirley Manson, for your voice, your courage, and the way you’ve taught so many of us to find our own.
From one fan, and from a whole community of us: we’re forever grateful.
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Garbage’s Last U.S. Headlining Tour at the Hollywood Palladium Was a Night Fans Will Never Forget
